"I have wanted you for so long, and I did not know it until you took me in your arms at your door." His lips on my shoulder are tender, and it makes my throat feel tight for a moment, but then he is kissing down my back, tongue moist and teeth sharp and scraping. They sink into my buttock and I jump.
And then go very still as something moist touches my anus. "Have you been touched here?" His finger rubs me, and despite myself I groan.
"Once," I say thickly. A sweet-faced, wicked boy in a brothel, who pressed his finger there while I fucked his mouth. I came astonishingly hard, and overpaid him so that he would not speak of it. "Never," I add, and I must force the words out, "inside."
My breath is coming fast and shallow. For all his talk of us as men, I cannot see this as anything other than shame, as unmanning. To be - penetrable...it is unthinkable.
But not unthinkable at all, it seems, because I am so very hard. I stifle a sound in my throat as he rubs me. Either I trust him to do this or I do not, and as I realise that some of the pained tension goes out of my muscles, makes space for desire. Yet I cannot imagine him putting his prick there.
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Date: 2010-10-22 12:25 am (UTC)And then go very still as something moist touches my anus. "Have you been touched here?" His finger rubs me, and despite myself I groan.
"Once," I say thickly. A sweet-faced, wicked boy in a brothel, who pressed his finger there while I fucked his mouth. I came astonishingly hard, and overpaid him so that he would not speak of it. "Never," I add, and I must force the words out, "inside."
My breath is coming fast and shallow. For all his talk of us as men, I cannot see this as anything other than shame, as unmanning. To be - penetrable...it is unthinkable.
But not unthinkable at all, it seems, because I am so very hard. I stifle a sound in my throat as he rubs me. Either I trust him to do this or I do not, and as I realise that some of the pained tension goes out of my muscles, makes space for desire. Yet I cannot imagine him putting his prick there.