"I want to come inside you. I want to feel you push back against my prick." The words send a hard shudder through me, part disgust and part desire. Nothing i have ever done has felt so filthy, so debauched, and I have hardly led an innocent life.
Bu the roughness in his voice, the teasing stretch of his fingers, the heat of him there between my legs. I do not understand how I want it, and yet I do. Want him.
"Tell me if you want it," he says, as if he could hear my thoughts. It is not in Allectus' nature to goad me to shame, and so the question is honest, not meant to humiliate.
I wish that I could look at him better, rather than this twist over my shoulder so that his fingers move inside me, gods. I look him in the eye as firmly as I can. I do not think I am a man to shy from honesty myself. I will meet this head on.
"I want it." My voice is very hoarse, but true. I add, as in my thoughts: "I want you." I do not say please, this time. I am not asking him for this as something he has the power to grant, I will not come as a suppliant. I will only tell him my desire.
I push myself up onto my knees, and the muscles in my thighs are braced and hard.
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Date: 2010-10-22 12:11 pm (UTC)Bu the roughness in his voice, the teasing stretch of his fingers, the heat of him there between my legs. I do not understand how I want it, and yet I do. Want him.
"Tell me if you want it," he says, as if he could hear my thoughts. It is not in Allectus' nature to goad me to shame, and so the question is honest, not meant to humiliate.
I wish that I could look at him better, rather than this twist over my shoulder so that his fingers move inside me, gods. I look him in the eye as firmly as I can. I do not think I am a man to shy from honesty myself. I will meet this head on.
"I want it." My voice is very hoarse, but true. I add, as in my thoughts: "I want you." I do not say please, this time. I am not asking him for this as something he has the power to grant, I will not come as a suppliant. I will only tell him my desire.
I push myself up onto my knees, and the muscles in my thighs are braced and hard.